zutto ikite(:

HAHAHAHA, i am back to update. a lot of things have happened.
another semester have been over.
events over again, Interaction Camp prep starts le also.

my life has been ups and downs.
sometimes i am happy, sometimes i am sad.
happy is when i am with you, enjoying life with you, the dates we have
sad when i argue with you, u not happy with me, i not happy with you
haiz.

but of course, i am happy with the existence of you with me.
well, we went to the Zoo just yesterday.
it was a fun experience with you. walking around, seeing animals.
both of us were tired. we are like NOOBS.

well, i am a BIG NOOB BLOGGER, dont know what to blog exactly.
so trying to blog as much.
now i am in the CLUB waiting for dinner.
the year 1s PCs are doing their camp prep.

BABY, i tried. I Love You :D

for all it happen, it will happen:D

let me introduce my family, GAIA.
Oscar, Gan Joo, Yun Hui, Zhong Wei, Jamie, Felicia, Jing Qi, Xin Lei, Li Fang, Kenneth, Carlyn, Qiao Yan, Hui Lun, Edmund, Nigel, Chin Gee, Lionel, Lester, Yen Ceen, Zhi Xuan, Jun Yi & Nick :D

it is all over; everything we all done from the start of camp prep till now, has all paid off. but for us, we want to continue all this. i am lazy to talk too much, cos there's so much.

what's to say, i've no regrets over what i've done from the start. the choosing, the way i am doing, people might say we all have not done it great or what.

but that's the way we learn. it's how we can learn. they might not be able to learn, but i still love and trust them.

so for this last time, let's work together for the next sessional and for the MAYBE next 50 years ! :D 

i love G.A.I.A.

you can't imagine some 17s and 18s can learn so much !

YI TIAO XIN, may we go with everyone.

ZUTTO IKITE, GAIA ! :D

it happened once more.
life is so vulnerable after this day.
i was never so weak.
all this made me even tired and stressed.
first, my grandpa (on Mummy's side)
second, IC camp 08/09.
third, her.
fourth, F.O Camp 09/10
fifth, studies.
sixth, a new her?
seventh and newest, the death of my grandpa (from Dad's side)

it was never easy i guess.
why do i need to face all this?
can't i have a peaceful life?
my beloved grandpa already left me once.
and now another one.
i've no grandpa anymore.
i will never say "Ah-gong or Ye Ye" this two words anymore.
it will all go into my memories forever.
never to be sought.

this past weeks, camp have been tough.
this is the biggest camp that i've done.
and it cannot fail.
handling 22 ppl, including myself.
it is like hell so difficult.
i am tired. but however, i didn't want to give up.

sometimes, my selfish part says why they can be so happy, and me suffering for their sake?
but however, after thinking, i work all this hard, main aim is to let them be happy.
this is all i want.
and they learn, that's even better.
it's all worth.

it's a road to move on.
everything they made me disappointed.
every time they sang so lowly on song prac.
every time they only think of themselves.
every time their games werent up to expectations.
every time my heart aches because of them.
every time i scold myself for not being able to control my emotions.
every time i scold myself for scolding you all for not doing things.
every time i scold myself for not being the one for you all.
every time i scold myself for being the heartless one in front of you all.
every time i blame myself for not paving all the way for you all.
every time i blame myself for the things you all done.
every time i blame myself why am i the one to scold you.
every time. why is there so many everytime.
i just do not know why.
i want to GIVE UP.
but...

every time i see you all laugh.
every time i see you enjoy everything.
every time i see you all enjoy every moment of camp prep.
every time i see you all talk together.
every time i see you all gossip together.
every time i see you all eat together.
every time i see you all sing together.

it may seem nothing to anyone.
but it means a lot to me.
it's almost equivalent to all the things i done and my life.
it's you all who made me carry on.
it's you all who told me not to give up
it's you all who sang to me.
it's you all who accompanied to walk this tough road ahead.
i know it's never easy to do this.

therefore, i do love you all.
you all meant everything to me.
even every particle of you all.
you made up my life.

ZUTTO IKITE , please live on. i know it's not never easy. J(:

it's days after the camp.
camp was a success, i really learned from that.
it made me cry. i forked out a lot of effort.
it's not just having less hours of sleep, but a lot.
remember the last week of camp prep, i totally didnt even went home for 4 days, wearing the same shirt for that few days.
it's tiring but then fun.
remember when i was stressed until i didnt eat for a total of 3 days, just living on water and some snacks.
remember when we ate like some crazy fellows when time wasnt enough.
remember when we sang so happily for song practices.
remember when we worked so hard for our indoor skit.
remember when we practiced so hard for our mass dance.
remember, life's got a lot of things to remember.
and therefore, i've used this time to remember all 8 of you all.

Priscilla, Zhong Wei, Jing Qi, Edmund, Jamie, Lester, Nigel and Lionel(:
it's not matter this or that.
it's the time we spent, and the hard work we did together.
i dont care what people says, but then i always felt it's the best thing i've ever done.
if they gave me this opportunity at that moment once more, i would still take it again, without any regrets.


but days after the camp was boring.
no more camp prep.
everyday slack.
but then seeing you made me lighten up my days.
this few days, seeing you, changed a lot.
the first time i see you sad, smile.
the first time i felt that loving someone is so sweet.
the first time i felt that just by seeing you , the whole day from gloomy will change to happy.
the words you said, wasnt much.
but seeing you is enough.
it's still far.
but it's never tiring.
remember, when you turned back, i'm always there for you.
Eu Te Amo(:

当你不知道该如何的时侯,不用怕,你一转身,我就会在你后面(:

LET THE PICS do the SAYING ! (:



KENNETH & me ! prata/debate (19 July 08)



Brothers of CADC ! (25 July 08)



CADC Year 1 (: (11 July 08)



CADC Gotei 13 ! (11 July 08)



CADC Guys Formal with QY (29 Jul 08)



CADC informal ! (29 July 08)



FELICIA & ME ! (3 Aug 08)


CADC Grad Night 08/09 (5 July 08)



CADC Prata Outing (19 July 08)


Brothers Hp (Me, Edmund, Lester & Weizhuang)


CADC yr 1 GIRLS (25 Jul 08)



Zutto ikite, please live on strongly(:

going to keep this a SHORT POST, i am quite lazy to type.
just had my GRAD night ytd.
it was fun seriously.

firstly, prepared myself for the grad night.
wore my AGM white shirt and A RED SKINNY.
it was quite okay. and with a black tie.
and MY HAIR TIED UP with a TAIL.
it was not bad.

then off went me to bugis to meet the GUYS.
they say i look like AH BENG again.
but anyway, it was quite okay.

then we took a cab to the york hotel.
then everyone started saying me an AH BENG.
but anyway, i love my HAIR tail.

then we took some photos.
and started eating.
the food is not really up to my expectations.
me and felicia both say not nice, no appetite siahs.
i skipped three dishes.
LOL.

then we took more and more photos and started using the mic to sing.
then OVER the grad night liao.
it was a good experience.

then off all to CINE KBOX.
it was a total of 20 ppl going.
HAHAHAHA.
fun, and good experience.
me and felicia started playing "SEAWEED".
ended up both losing. and started drinking beer. LOL.
heard their voices and FELICIA & QIAOYAN had great voices. next time must go more Kbox.

then sing sing sing until no voice. then went home after that.
sleep a while, went out.
LAZY TO SAY.

like i always love to say , a PICTURE says a THOUSAND words, while WE make up the 1001th ONE =D



THE ONES, SEH-POPs =D




I WILL NEVER FORGET THEM, danchuns, myLOVE(:

hello babes , the SHUAI GE is back for you all =D
anyway, starting to post more regularly.
although i am a lazy guy to post this stuffs.
just love posting when i love to =D

but anyway, had my exam today.
itab and it sucks well.
for questions i know, i know it half half.
then for questions i dont know, i will JUST ANSWER I DON'T KNOW (:

well, then after my itab session, rushed down to club as usual.
had my usual carom session.
club left me, wzhuang, zwei and edmund again =D
then we went to dinner.
and i ate my FC4 western food TWICE today, and FOUR TIMES in these three days(:
oh me. i love it !!!
talked a while tgt then we go home together.

looking forward to friday.
had many events till SUNDAY.
and there will be officially no sleep for me SERIOUSLY ! =D
friday mahjong, sat morning go SENTOSA then night meet peeps for pasir ris park OUT (:
then sunday meet peeps out for shopping for AGM & GRAD NIGHT.

well, for now, tcm with zwei, edmund & weizhuang.
after that, see SOCCER ! (:
hope turkey wins .

cadcYR1 FTW !
sehpop FTW ! =D
zutto ikite, please live on.

nothing special, another lovely DAY with CADC =D
had my PACC test,
it was quite okay.
tmr is going to be econs.
and wed itab, friday stats.
finish le, jiu can PLAY ! =D

after pacc, met carlyn & others for lunch and then went to t16 to study.
studied till ard 3 plus.
went back to club.
zwei edmund wzhuang they all want eat, so we go fc4 makan =D
i love the CHICKEN CHOP there, cheap and nice.

after eating, went to play ball a while.
then we went back CLUB sing =D

then back home at around 8 plus pm (:
and now, slacking and finished my notes le.

CADC yr 1 got their new blog. created by SEH-POP(:
cam our MEMORIES together and put all these into an album.
i would love to see all this when i'm old =D
i love CADC year 1 08/09 (:

it's now 4.23am. i just woke up.
cos i this morning feeling so tired, and had to go to the old folk's house.
i am already not feeling so well, almost vomited.
but the old folk's CIP was fun =D
i learned quite a lot, life's hard.
enjoy it when you're young and don't regret when you're old. =D

then these few days with CADC peeps =D
didnt update our CADC year 1 first OUTING.
we went to vivocity and crapped, photos.
and catch a movie, KUNGFU panda.
that show was damn funny.
 
after show, we went to the fountain outside and talked.
then zwei came, and EPPO-ed.
we had A LOT of eppo-ing on that day.
after that, some went home.
while some guys and me went to the top and had TCM usual.

then tuesday we got spring cleaning.
and MC meeting before that.
tired as usual.
worked until night.
then me weizhuang zwei and edmund went to clementi eat and bought beer and had tcm below a VOID DECK.

lazy to type once more.
going to meet up MRS ONG , she is back =D
i miss her so much.
and of cos , my CADC peeps =DDDDDDD

i know i haven been updating for almost 2 MONTHS !
now i am going to update.
this 2 months, i am very happy with my life.

love DEAREST cadc(:
love my classmates(:
how should i start off with my entry?
okays !
erm, i am in CADC ( Current Affairs & Debating Club ) !
and i am proud to be one.
and i am an ASSISTANT COMM HEAD for CURRENT AFFAIRS comm(:

and one of the events which we had just done is the SUB COM CAMP ! (:
it's a one of its kind camp.
i am sure all of us enjoyed this camp.
i learned a lot from you all.
LEMON-POP and SEH-POP !

SEH-POP members : me, zhong wei, lester, joey, farris, nigel, and many others !
OUR G-L is MR WEI ZHUANG(:
it's a group simply created by us.
just RANDOM-ness.
and i DESPISE YOU and orh-yi-orh-yi-orh seems to BE the hot language for this camp ! (:


beside this camp, cadc peeps have regularly come down to play carom and stuffs, having tcs, which is talk cork session.
we will have dinner together and talk cork once again.
i looooove all of them ! (:
and i know we are ZAI , and will become more ZAI !

as for my studies, well, i am not real sure whether am i struggling or not.
i am quite okay with accounting and economics.
my pbl for my fom is good(:
but i am quite scared of statistics.
i hope i will get into my study mood(:

as for my classmates, into my usual clique, chun rong, sheryl, kim, eric, yihao, louis and me (:
we will spend our time in class and after lunch.
sometimes, we will go out together too(:


AND last of all, i missed my secondary school mates.
well, i met up boon how, hua han, jess, shiying and others just yesterday.
we had a great time talking(:

and i would love to meet them up soon.
and LOVEABLEMAMAS !
and MY DANCHUNS(:

this is a special post just for you, my dearest GRANDPA.
alot of things happened this past week.

18th of APRIL 2008, 2.23am.
i woke up at the morning at around 8am.
today's my boy 17th birthday(:
intending to find her to celebrate.
but something happened.
my mum called me up and told me GRANDPA was dead.
i didn't know what was happening.
mummy was crying.
and i was in a loss.
she told me that ah-gong died of heart-attack when sleeping at home.
so mummy and i rushed down to ah-gong's house.
we took the cab and saw our relatives there.
they were all crying.
but however, i cannot make it to the funeral today, therefore, i went to school.
then, i was feeling down.
friends knew it and started consoling me. thanks.
after that, met up with cadc project members for grp discussion.
then i met up with monota members and seniors for dinner.
we went to lau pa sat.
we ate and it's quite cheap.
spend like $15.
it was quite worth it.
then after that, we seperated.
minglei, fish, darren, irene and me went to fish's house for a mahjong session.
cool.
we played until 9 plus am.
and i did not win or lose.
went home from woodlands after that.


19th of APRIL 2008.
i went home and reached about 12am.
then after that, i went to sleep.
until around 3pm, i woke up.
and do some stuffs.
met yanjing on bus to kim's place for gathering.
reached around 6pm.
her house was real big, i was being lame but true.
we had dinner and it was good.
we played some games.
and had boxing game.
it was real painful.
my hand hurts.
they say i'm violent like siao.
and after that, ard 12am , we left.
then me chun rong and yj took a cab home.


20th - 24th APRIL 2008.
i went to my ah-gong's funeral.
i wasn't in the right mood, therefore, affecting my school.
i feel so strange.
can't concentrate.
tried my best, but ended up feeling fcked up.
and we did all the procedures.
and went to school as usual.
but on 23rd, i was feeling so sad.
we were burning the moneys and stuffs for ah-gong.
i started crying once more.
i couldn't stop.
it was bad.
i went to my aunt's house and cool down.
i slept at ard 5am.
woke up and prepared for the last day of the funeral for ah-gong.
and ended up crying once more.
i cried so badly.
i feel that why ah-gong must die.
i didn't know what to do.
i saw his face and feel damn sad.
when they closed up the funeral, i kept crying.
i told myself not to, but as i msg xinlei, the tears kept rolling down on the hp.
when we going to cremate him, my relatives cried and cried.
and me, crying like some helpless baby.
it was the first time i cried so hard.
after all this, went for dinner with relatives.
and now , at aunt's house staying.
going to school tmr at 12am.


after one week of all this happening, i was wondering what would happen to me if i were to die right now?
no one will care about me?
do i know what will happen?
i really hope i will be the first to die.
cos me being emotional, wouldn't bear to see my parents, relatives and friends to die.
no one is to die.
i cannot take the fact.
i will cry like hell.
but ah-gong, i know you're happy with ur life(:
and then u will go to heaven .
i know it(:
we love you(:
and i love you too(:


JUST WHEN YOU THOUGHT IT WAS THE END, IT WAS JUST THE START OF ANOTHER ONE(:

just went to school these few days.
it was getting more fun and fun.
at wed, just went school to learn how to use laptop.
after that. just went for lunch and played basketball and pool.
then we just went home.
i'm tired.

then at thursday, i went to dover again, for the flag day opening ceremony.
see lion dance, damn lame.
then we set off to commonwealth for our flag day.
i thought it would not be so many people.
but damn lot ppl helped us.
it was quite fun.
then sheryl and kim asked me wanna join to go to city hall for the flag day.
then i said okay .
and i asked chun rong too.
so we 4 just went.
had a lot of fun.
at first, raising money.
after that, we do not care and we went to catch a movie.
definitely,maybe(:
that's quite a nice show.
maybe 4/5(:
at first, i almost slept, cos i am tired.
then we all went back to school.
slack for a while and i went home around 10pm.




at friday, met up with suijins for dinner at marina square.
we ate pizza hut.
then rushed off to go friend's house.
we had fun like crazy and laughing like mad.
playing tennis, bowling and AMERICAN IDOL.
i do sing well, that's what the score says.
so i'm the next american idol(:
we cabbed home after that.


at saturday, which is few hours ago, i went to meet all CADCs to have a final-round up.
it was really fun.
i turned out late at the start.
and they keep suaning me, saying i tell them come earlier and then i came late.
then we went to have steamboat.
then we just keep crapping.
and took a lot of pics.
MONOTA AND SUIJINS damn ZAI !!!!
we love shunfa and meiqi(:
then ard 11pm, finishing.
don't really know what to do.
then we went to have supper.
allan and fish they all wanted that.
so we all went to bedok to have it lors.
then after that, we keep crapping.
d , our senior drove us to jalan besar to find my friends for pool.
played one hour and went to eat mac.
after tht, daddy brought me home.
and now , i am sitting here typing.
can't wait to go school !!! (:


love this song, teardrops on the guitar(:

zutto ikite(:

i started my orientation and school.
the first two days was fun.
and i love my school.
SP DBF 01  ZAI  ! (:

and these past few days went to CADC fusion.
and i was in MONOTA.
i love the group even it was just 2 days 1 night(:
and i know even more friends(:
LI XIAN and EDMUND and ZHI XUAN  zai ! (:
we keep talking craps and about the idiotic girls we had in our group.
i mean the girls are good, but damn funny larh.
and we did a lot of stupid stuffs.
SHUN FA and MEI QI was our GL and GA.
and DARREN too(:
he looked like me okays.
WE LOVE THEM ! (:
meet up soon anyway everyone(:

tmr still need go school.
then know some friends from my class.
like yi hao, chun rong  eric , alvin and sheryl they all.
and of cos YANJING  same class as me(:

zutto ikite(: